Do I have what it takes?

Isn't that a question that everyone asks at some point? Some days the answer to that questions is a resounding "YES!", other days it's a very defeated "No..."

I have been asking myself this question since the inception of my Business, and as with other events and obstacles in my life, I have had several days of yes, and just as many of no. There are many days that both yes and no are the answer to that question. The other question that seem to plague my mind lately is not do I have what it takes, but rather, is this worth it? It is worth the money that I have, am, and will have to put into this? It is worth the time and energy that I have, am, and will put into this? Is it worth it? It's a risk, that's for sure. Venturing out on your own always is.

But if it is something that you love to do, then it has to be worth it, right?

To me, I'll never know if I don't try. This realization came from a very scary night last night for me, and my husband. My only living grandparent, my mamaw, at 86 years old in February, was taken to the Emergency Room by ambulance with what we later learned was a minor heart attack. Three years ago a similar night happened, and the following day* had open heart surgery: a triple bypass. They call it the widow maker.

Praise GOD, HE spared her life both times. 

All I can think of it what if I live my life so scared that I don't have what it takes? What if I live my life wondering if it is worth it? I'd never live at all. I'd never do anything that I love.

So, yes, I doubt myself. I doubt that people will like what I make. I doubt that consumers will purchase the goods that I have to offer. I may not have a lot of support, but I know this: I have to try. I have to do what I love. I was not raised to give up on something just because it is hard, takes longer than planned, or is unpopular. 

So I will create, and update, and stick with it till it is evident that this is not what GOD has for me to do with my future. He has never lead me wrong yet, and never will. But I do not believe that GOD would have given me the talent to look at something and see what could be made out of it for no reason. 

Do I have what it takes? Yes, I do. 

Is it worth it? Yes, it is.